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And now some thoughts on why I've been preoccupied with thoughts of genderfucked!Sam Winchester all day.
Last night I read the latest genderfuckery fic SPN fandom has come up with, and though I was a bit unimpressed by all the 'ew! periods!' stuff at the start, it really came into its own by the end of it. But dude, aside from the awesome denouement in that story, why am i still thinking about it? and why are the majority of my SPN thoughts about girl!Sam and Dean now?
Well yeah, part of it is that the girl!Sam in that fic was constructed as really freaking hot, and there is that thing with me where I like, you know, like girls and stuff, but still. Dude. I love the slash, so what is it?
And I think part of it is, like, well I was thinking about this lately, and how my attraction to different types and genders of people fluctuates depending on what my hormones a doing; and how sometimes I find the idea of men repulsive and just want to curl up with a completely familiar little lady; but then other times I feel like I crave something kind of exotic - like, I'm too familiar with the female body, how can I find something pleasurable and exciting when I know all of its foibles and it's with me all the time? It's times like this when it's indulging in new and different things are what does it for me, and the female body ain't necessarily it.
(And I think this is where a lot of my enjoyment of slash comes from - enjoying that difference, but from a safe distance.)
So okay, where does girl!Sam fit in this? well girl!Sam is kind of best of both worlds, I think. Not a boy with bits I'm not quite sure what to do with, but on the flipside of that coin, he's an instantly created woman. a new woman. i.e. a body that isn't ordinary/mundane/unexciting because it hasn't been around since, like, forever, and therefore it's exotic.
And I also think I find it so pleasurable because of my enjoyment of characters in texts I love - to be quite honest, there are very, very few female characters out there that I actually like at all, that I can actually enjoy on a meta level. Sure, there are the Buffyesque 'strong' female characters, but they still feel like they're constructed to shallowly - even if they're not being oppressed, women in texts are so often constructed as just that - constructs. figureheads or tokens of an idea. male characters are the only ones who really own their own characters, the ones that I can really fall for because I'm getting-to-know-them and love them as people, as opposed to ideas, you know? Even if they're just fulfilling a plot arc (like Sam so obviously is), but that excites me too (more, even) because that's what really gets me going - active participants within a text; ones not pawns on the chess board but individual monopoly pieces jumping around on the black-and-white tiles.
So anyway, girl!Sam is still Sam, still active-male-character, but, like, a girl. a hot girl. MY BUTTONS, THEY ARE ALL OFFICIALLY PUSHED.
So anyway, go read that fic. 'sgood.
Last night I read the latest genderfuckery fic SPN fandom has come up with, and though I was a bit unimpressed by all the 'ew! periods!' stuff at the start, it really came into its own by the end of it. But dude, aside from the awesome denouement in that story, why am i still thinking about it? and why are the majority of my SPN thoughts about girl!Sam and Dean now?
Well yeah, part of it is that the girl!Sam in that fic was constructed as really freaking hot, and there is that thing with me where I like, you know, like girls and stuff, but still. Dude. I love the slash, so what is it?
And I think part of it is, like, well I was thinking about this lately, and how my attraction to different types and genders of people fluctuates depending on what my hormones a doing; and how sometimes I find the idea of men repulsive and just want to curl up with a completely familiar little lady; but then other times I feel like I crave something kind of exotic - like, I'm too familiar with the female body, how can I find something pleasurable and exciting when I know all of its foibles and it's with me all the time? It's times like this when it's indulging in new and different things are what does it for me, and the female body ain't necessarily it.
(And I think this is where a lot of my enjoyment of slash comes from - enjoying that difference, but from a safe distance.)
So okay, where does girl!Sam fit in this? well girl!Sam is kind of best of both worlds, I think. Not a boy with bits I'm not quite sure what to do with, but on the flipside of that coin, he's an instantly created woman. a new woman. i.e. a body that isn't ordinary/mundane/unexciting because it hasn't been around since, like, forever, and therefore it's exotic.
And I also think I find it so pleasurable because of my enjoyment of characters in texts I love - to be quite honest, there are very, very few female characters out there that I actually like at all, that I can actually enjoy on a meta level. Sure, there are the Buffyesque 'strong' female characters, but they still feel like they're constructed to shallowly - even if they're not being oppressed, women in texts are so often constructed as just that - constructs. figureheads or tokens of an idea. male characters are the only ones who really own their own characters, the ones that I can really fall for because I'm getting-to-know-them and love them as people, as opposed to ideas, you know? Even if they're just fulfilling a plot arc (like Sam so obviously is), but that excites me too (more, even) because that's what really gets me going - active participants within a text; ones not pawns on the chess board but individual monopoly pieces jumping around on the black-and-white tiles.
So anyway, girl!Sam is still Sam, still active-male-character, but, like, a girl. a hot girl. MY BUTTONS, THEY ARE ALL OFFICIALLY PUSHED.
So anyway, go read that fic. 'sgood.