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*sniffles* Poor John. He's lost his whole family. I was kind of hoping they'd make him into a werewolf too. *sob*
-Aya

I was kind of hoping they'd make him into a werewolf too.

all that alpha might cause some kind of Winchester-implosion, though!

... I can't believe I've given that consideration. la la.

Thanks for the feedback :)

Oh, that was lovely and sad, totally heartbreaking. He knows, and they know, and they were *there* but they didn't talk, didn't...connect, except in the most tenuous way.
*sniffle*

Lovely stuff.

Gods. That was...I...wha...guh. That was amazing. I had chills. Finding the car...aughh! And the journal...and...and...I have to go read the Tiber story now. Gah!

Oh, and thank YOU so much for this. It's...geez, where are my powers of speech when I need them? Oh, I forgot. This story stole them.

I am totally fascinated by the fact that you read this before you read Tiber. It must be... different. :D

Glad to see it still worked despite (or thanks to?) that, though!

Thank YOU for the lovely feedback - I'm really glad you enjoyed this :)

they were *there* but they didn't talk, didn't...connect, except in the most tenuous way.

possibly I'm psychotic like that. but... couldn't really see it happening any other way. heh.

Thank you - I'm glad you liked it :)

i kept wondering how it was going to turn out, wondering if john was going to shoot the two wolves without knowing, even after he and caleb found the den and caleb left, and then they led him back to the stream and i figured it would be ok. "ok" in this case meaning "no one had to die." the boys took care of john and he buried his bullets so he wouldn't have to shoot them. probably the only way it could have ended without them all being dead. heartbreaking, but beautifully written, especially all the descriptions of the forest and john and caleb's trails and camps.

>>Nothing was missing, he writes, then strikes it out.<<

...because something IS.

Nah, not psychotic!
We each have our own 'visions' of things - and that's cool. Did i want to see the boys, all lean and scarred, tanned so dark, hair grown out and dirt under their nails, standing in the dappled light of trees. Wary and easily startled, part of the forest now - part of something *else* and not his boys, not really, not anymore...

Oh, yis, i did. And John try to talk and them try to talk - say *something* but...yeah.

But that's *my* vision, and this is *your* story. Heh. So - all, all good.

Your vision does sound exceedingly lovely. *happily integrates into own vision*

:)

Thank you for the lovely feedback. It took a while to wrap my head around how to go about writing this ultimate outcome, and then a while longer to wrap John's head around it. I'm really glad it worked for you :)

Thanks again :)

Wow, I think this broke me.

*stares at computer blankly, overcome*

I can't even begin to delineate everything I loved about this but the one thing I can't get away from is the idea that John knew, deep down, the entire time, he just didn't want to believe it.

And that line. Oh my fuck. The ending, everything, is overwhelmingly amazing. Wow, just ... wow.

Gah, this is wonderful. Really haunting.

Nothing was missing, he writes, then strikes it out.

That's where my heart clutched and stuttered, and I spent the rest of the story breathless.

Even though the reader knows so much more than John, you've created this crushing air of dread and menace, so that every threat feels total and unknown. Fear of the dark, even though we know exactly what's in the dark.

I'm pretty damn speechless at this; it's easily one of the best stories I've ever read, let alone fanfics. It's haunting and wonderful and terrible and you're amazing.

the idea that John knew, deep down, the entire time, he just didn't want to believe it.

... and that ties into what I believe is at the core of John's character - because canonically he's already thrown his life away in the pursuit of a goal he can never obtain - getting Mary back.

but anyhoo. This feedback made me grin stupidly. I'm really glad you liked it! Or, were broken by it, which is almost better :D

Thanks so much for commenting :)

Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it :D

YOU'RE amazing.

Though seriously dude, thank you for the feedback. I am extremely glad that this worked for you, I um, might have had a little bit of anxiety on that front.

xox

This is amazing, especially the last image, John burying the silver. It's surprisingly gentle, considering how gut-wrenching the whole situation is.

I loved that even though there was no real contact, still, they had the exchange of journals, as if John will have something of Sam and Dean's (that he gave to them), and they'll have something of his.

Beautuful. Poor John.

Thank you :) I'm glad you liked it - thanks for commenting :)

*whimpers*

Oh. This was - thank you, thank you, thank you for pointing this out! Because I wouldn't have wanted to miss out on it any longer.

John trailing them, well yes - he would, everything he's doing, he's doing for (Mary and) his boys. Well, in a kinda obsessive, mission, batman/sarah connor kinda way.
And his denial at what the evidence is suggesting, looking instead for what would take them away? *winces*
Aww.

Man, words not working properly. This? Was absorbing, a little doom-y, suspenseful in the moving-characterisation kinda way, and an excellent late-late night treat.
(5am? Ok, I possibly should have left this til the morning/when I wake up, but - awww! I'm so yay!)

And I knew they'd rescue John when he got all lost and things. *sniffa*
Passing in the night, though, no goodbyes, just "I'm sorry".
Better though, to know, rather than just - gone.
Ok, sleep now. And that's again for the pointer!
;)

Yay! I'm so glad you liked this one :D

John was really tricky to write (emotionally unvailable, much?) so I'm really happy that it all came together and worked as John in the end.

*yayes*

One of the best Supernatural fic i've read so far...and the most heartbreaking to boot,...*sobs*...i've already read the first one where both Sam and Dean turned into wares, and that one leaves a bittersweet feeling from start till end, making me both smile like a lovestruck loon and cry like a big baby at how far Sammy are willing to go through for Dean,...*sniffles*...and this sequel just done it in for me, i just can't stop myself from sobbing at how much tragedy poor John had to go through, first loosing his beloved Mary, and then his two precious sons turns into the very monsters that he's been training them to hunt down since they both were little kids, mannnn that is just fuck up dude,....*shakes-head*...

All in all, this fic of yours is the best Supernatural fic i've read in weeks sooo far, and i'm glad that i didn't missed the chance to read such a gem of a fic like this,...*hugs*...thanks for writing it and sharing it with us Supernatural fans,...*smooch*...i might be a bit late on catching up on reading this fic, but believe me, it's the best Supernatural fic ever to me, and again, i hope you would continue writing in the Supernatural fandom okies??...*smile*...

Till my next review, keep up the good work, and ganbate-ne!! \/^_^\/

Thank you for the lovely feedback!! I'm really glad you enjoyed this, and the fact that I can't seem to really write anything that's truly cheerful :D

I'm definitely writing more Supernatural fic, hopefully soon!!

Thanks again :)

I read this before I read On the banks of the Tiber, so wow, that was a shock, but it really worked. I figured it along with John, dreading what I knew it was going to be. And I've really been haunted by this (and the prequel) ever since. It's heartbreaking, but in a totally different way than I've read before. Amazing story. My throat gets tight every time I reread it.

It always kinda fascinates me when people read this before Tiber! Your experience of it must be so much different.

Thank you for the feedback, I really appreciate it. I'm glad it's stuck with you :)

I finally came around to reading your werewolf AU, and I'm angry with myself I didn't read it earlier.

Sam doing something like this for Dean - share this life, because he couldn't be without him seemed like the ultimate sacrifice. I really enjoyed "On the Banks of the Tiber" and its sequel - I'd loved for John to find his boys, just get a fleeting glance at them, so we might know how they are, too.

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