October 24th, 2010
Does anyone want to take over maintainership of the following LJ communities?
Ah, huh. That warm fuzzy feeling of "it's so nice, just reading fanfic and not being involved in fandom and feeling all the self-inflicted emotional pressure of producing works and gaining approval/attention from it" receded when I started browsing stories on LJ, skimming past feedback, etc... I started feeling anxious and yearning and lonely and frustrated again. Clearly I have been conditioned by years of that kind of fannish exchange and process in that particular environment. (And the annoying thing is, I know that when I start writing again I well feel it NECESSARY to post on LJ rather than just on the AO3, because as shitty as this feeling is, I do need the treat that might come if I push the lever *this* time...)
Anyway. * For the record, my process of consuming fic on the AO3 is thus: 1) download epub, 2) read on ipad, 3) if I enjoyed it, I go to "my history" on a device with a keyboard, then bookmark and leave feedback. I probably leave feedback more consistently than I ever have! Which probably has not a little to do with the situation ramblingly described in the paragraph above.
- Mood:
thoughtful
- Crossposts:http://angstslashhope.livejournal.com/1653855.html