To expand... At the beginning, I think he really had to prove to himself he wasn't crazy, that was he saw was true, which meant understanding what it was in the first place...and riding on that, his boys' safety, possibly and probably not for their sake's but his own (the only thing left to him) somewhat on the unconscious level.
Revenge came later, imo, once he knew he wasn't mad, once he knew there really was evil out there, and that it was purposeful, once he could finally identify IT as the one reason behind Mary's death and John's 'life as he knew it' destruction.
Justice came along with that, discovering that not only Evil existed, but he could do something about it, help other people (His voicemail in the Phantom ep specifically identify his being available for help/emergency..well, that or volunteering Dean for it ;).
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To expand...
At the beginning, I think he really had to prove to himself he wasn't crazy, that was he saw was true, which meant understanding what it was in the first place...and riding on that, his boys' safety, possibly and probably not for their sake's but his own (the only thing left to him) somewhat on the unconscious level.
Revenge came later, imo, once he knew he wasn't mad, once he knew there really was evil out there, and that it was purposeful, once he could finally identify IT as the one reason behind Mary's death and John's 'life as he knew it' destruction.
Justice came along with that, discovering that not only Evil existed, but he could do something about it, help other people (His voicemail in the Phantom ep specifically identify his being available for help/emergency..well, that or volunteering Dean for it ;).
Guilt came along with it all, I suppose.
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Yeah. What you said.
Protecting the boys. Protecting others. Having a purpose to life/doing work that means something. Seeking vengeance/redressing guilt.
And evolution from beginning to end across the years, in that order, IMO.