Author's Notes: This was written for the spn_remix challenge, and originally posted here. The original story, Lacuna, is awesome, innie_darling constructs such a sharp view of Dean and his family and his life, as well as such a real, both delightful and poignant look at Cassie and their failed relationship. It really is such a fabulous piece, filling in the gaps of that part in Dean's life so deftly. It was so great to be able to come at the 'verse she created from a different angle :)
Thank you to derryderrydown for the uber-quick beta. I was a pinch-hitter for this challenge, which meant I was assigned an author in the morning, hammered out a story, sent it off that night. So apologies for the wee errors in the version over at spnremixfics. I have a good excuse!
Damn, do you ever hammer out a good story. Love your John voice, love the little bits of visiting Sam without talking to him, love the brief introduction to Jill, and I Loved seeing Dean through John's eyes.
Now I'd better go feedback the original (which I just read) (after this one) (but before commenting). ;)
Thanks so much for the feedback. I was a bit worried when I started that this wasn't an appropriate story to remix John-wise, but then as I went along it was SO appropriate, and yeah. Another thing that doesn't get looked at a lot. Oh, JOHN!
Yeah, he is a bit of an ass. That was essentially my beta stage, mid-way through: derry: "well, what do you want to do?" me: "i want john to be an ASS! but an unselfconscious ass. HE'S JUST AN ASS, OK?"
he totally is a bit of a son of a bitch. Oh, John. Oh, Dean.
Oh, that was really great... Somehow I confused myself at first, and didn't get that the thing looked like Sam at the beginning... but I got it, soon, and it was so totally awesome... the writing was just so great... the nightmare was so creepy... I just love how much heart there is in this, without saying anything...
That was great! I went and read Lacuna, too, and it was cool to hear the whole story. I loved the description of John going to see Sam and the part where Dean wants to stay for Cassie.
oh my GOD, this is so wonderful--I'm just utterly speechless by the beginning, the framing scene, and--"I told you not to look back"--and the story inside is just *amazing* but nested like this? it kills me, it really does. omg. *ADORE*
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Now I'd better go feedback the original (which I just read) (after this one) (but before commenting). ;)
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Thanks so much for the feedback. I was a bit worried when I started that this wasn't an appropriate story to remix John-wise, but then as I went along it was SO appropriate, and yeah. Another thing that doesn't get looked at a lot. Oh, JOHN!
:)
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I'll read the original, too, but..I love this. This John, this Dean.
thank you.
No time or brain for more coherent feedback, sorry.
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But he *loves*. Even if it hurts.
Just...*sniffle*. Good stuff.
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he totally is a bit of a son of a bitch. Oh, John. Oh, Dean.
Thanks :))
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the nightmare was so creepy... I just love how much heart there is in this, without saying anything...
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Thank you so much :) I am glad you enjoyed it! and that it was creepy! yay creepiness :D
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